Five months ago, I looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize myself

We’d built trust strong as a concrete wall and I drilled it all down as I tore myself apart

I blamed my peers for my disobedience, yet only I controlled me— your leader became a follower

After lots of time to think, I’ve recentered myself, remembered who I was before all the bad influence

I’ve assured my discontinuance, I’ve regained my intelligence

As I walk out the door, I imagine you’re with me, peering Through My Eyes

I act as though you’re here, I speak as though you’re near

I’d hate for you to dislike how I carry myself; your disapproval makes me want to bury myself

in shame, your frown brings me pain. Just tell me you’re proud of me

Tell me you see me, hear me, know me, trust me

Most of the time, I feel like you don’t believe in me; you’re just waiting for me to fail again

I want you to feel comfortable leaving me alone, sending me out into this cruel world

A world full of toxicity and intensity, which is why I practice my integrity

to make sure I’m the best version of myself

I like who I am with you and I know you do, too